Rocka is cutting teeth and I want to cry.

Do you love making out with your gummy babies as much as I do?

Okay its more like he's eating mama's face, 

but it is my favorite thing in the whole entire world..

And if he is my last baby. 

How do I ask someone else to frenchie their babies..LOL jk (kind of)

I think I want to cry ten times a day, 

as I'm being completely mauled by this beautiful baby.

Some people may think it is weird and wrong to play baby bird with your baby...

 I think it's so right.

Mac Muffin The Artist

Do you see those little guys down at the bottom of our chalk board?  

They are 

MACKIE'S FIRST "REAL" DRAWINGS!!

He had the biggest smile on his face today when he came and got me, saying-

 "Mom look what I did!" 

I've never seen him so proud...Millie has told him a ton lately that he doesn't know how to draw, because he was still in the "scribbling'' stage. Which I think made this even more of a triumph for Mac.

YAY MACSTER.

Daddy has moved Offices!

I DOUBLE POSTED BECAUSE THIS IS ALL I'VE DONE AS OF RECENTLY!!!

My whole life has been put on hold...Or maybe fast forward. I'm not really sure!

It is a ton bigger, and we love it! It has been crazy amounts of work trying to get it together and furnished and decorated..Here is a picture of the desk AFTER Allie PUT IT TOGETHER..Yep me! 

And here are some of the things I've been working on this week. It is coming along slowly but surly. I'll have to post some more pictures as we finish up.

Trying to work out lots of little problems like, No hardware. Wrong parts Etc. Etc.

Labor of love...I love you babe...Even if i do spend all your money...At all times.

;)

Sisters

The cutest thing in the whole world is when little sister is sad, 

and runs to big sister for comfort.

It melts both my heart and Millie's. 

Lu runs with both arms out and buries her head into Millie.

I love them! 

Thanks babe...Those are things I really needed to hear tonight! 

YOUR THE BEST! I LOVE YOU!

Aren't we so glad our husbands always know exactly what we need to hear, when we need to hear it??

I know I am...

Happy Birthday Daddy!!!

Jason's breakfast choice

 BLTs and Donuts!

I'm just glad it wasn't one of his usual breakfast choices, Spaghetti, Pizza, Steak...
Anything that makes my stomach turn in the morning.

WE BOUGHT OUR OWN PERSONAL GYM!
 It's in Jason's new office. We are so excited! A super fun gift for my Lover.

The honest truth is...being a mom is hard, I'm not talking about a little hard. I'm talking I need a shrink most days, can't do this again tomorrow! "Why does anyone ever have kids?", kind of hard. It changes you in ways you never would have thought possible in a million years, like I haven't looked in the mirror all day, I have baby pooh on my pants. pee on my shirt and spit-up in my hair and I haven't even had the thought of getting in the shower cross my mind. 

I had four kids in four years, and honestly there have been times where I've felt like I was drowning, that my day to day craziness was more then I could handle.

BUT THE GOOD NEWS FOR THOSE WHO MAY BE FEELING THE WAY I'VE FELT...

It's getting better! I'm feeling some relief. It's come as they've gotten a little bit older, and  I feel like I'm able to breathe again. I look at my kids lately and think "this is too easy" And it's not really that it's easy it's just that I can handle it! 

I love my little family more then anything in the entire world, and I've never loved so fiercely, or intensely as I love them. I'm so glad no one ever told me how hard it would be because It is also the best thing I've ever done. And it is what we are sent here on earth to do. we aren't suppose to be selfish, we are suppose to be selfless. And as mothers that is definitely what we have to be!

But while we are being SELFLESS Lets not forget who we are in these crazy years with young children. I'm going to remember who Allie is, I'm going to apply the lip gloss I love while sitting home with my kids. I'm going to wear my rufflie apron and bunny slippers and dance around the kitchen like a manic with my kids singing at the top of my lungs...Because when I'm happy I'm a better mom and they are happier better kiddos.

I'm going to remember that these years are fleeting and to try so hard to be joyful,

 and soak in all the little special things.

 And I am going to forgive my self when I completely fail. Because there are those times..few and far between, that I don't fail...The times that I'm a really, really good mom.

MY MILSAP
 Millie passed off her book in preschool,
it was one that she was struggling with a little bit- and we are so proud of her!
We decided if she passed her book off this week she would get the date she had been begging for.
 So we got to go on a ''HOT DATE".. Shopping and lunch!
 Thanks babe for watching the other kiddos while we Played.
 We have so much fun together, Me and my Millie.

I'm so grateful to have a built-in-to-my-life, Best Friend ;)